Virginity and Facebook

So the topic of virginity came up Tues night with the manchild....we exchanged our collective stories. (side note I just realized he lost his virginity 8 years ago versus, my 18...Jesus) My story is not all that exciting...I basically just wanted to get it over with. I was a huge flirt in high school, I know you are stunned by this unveiling. I essentially shit talked my way into having sex for the first time. He was all "prove it" or some shit and I thought yeah OK, let's just do it. He tells me his friend has to come to keep a look out for his Mom, I guess she was a teacher, I can't remember.

The whole thing is fuzzy of course, hello, 18 years ago. I remember it being so surreal...for some reason I had on matching bra and panties and I remember him commenting on that. I think he also introduced me to oral that afternoon...I don't remember it being terrible or hurting too bad which I guess is a good thing since it wasn't like with my high school boyfriend of 3 years. I'm pretty sure I had never even made out with him before this day, just exchanged dirty notes in chemistry class. At 16 I was the last virgin in my class it seemed. I was a year behind everyone because my birthday is in Oct. Somehow everyone knew it too and I got frequent offers to be my first. How I settled on B is just hilarious...no thought behind it, just oops backed myself in a corner here, OK I'll do it. I must have left marks on him in some fashion because he went to baseball (basketball?) practice after and by the time I got to play practice at 7, the entire fucking school knew. I am from a super small town so I shouldn't have been that shocked but, 16 year old me was way more dramatic than 34 year old me...again, stunning revelation. So, that did piss me off at the time but, oddly not enough to NOT have sex with him again (rolling my eyes, what a slut).

I ran into The Lookout maybe a week or two after it all...not sure how it happened but, he told me that he watched us. He told me that B left the door cracked and he wasn't really there to watch for B's mom but, to watch me. I didn't believe him at first but, then did...again I don't know why. Then I proceeded to carry around some pretty solid hatred for B. I mean loosing your virginity is something you remember forever and I don't care how you slice it, letting your buddy watch is fucked up. I even said something super rude to him at our 10 year reunion (I was drunk...can you handle all this surprising news?).

Now, who really cares. I felt dumb about carrying a grudge that long after my reunion and decided fuck it...it was a long time ago and let it go. We are even friends on Facebook and have been for a while. I decided to email him this morning and find out after all. He may be totally lying but, he tells me he would never then or now allow someone to watch. I believe him and think how funny it is to be so affected by certain events in your life. He didn't even remember it was my first time...didn't even remember the lookout being there...I wonder if he remembered the purple bra and panty set. He did thank me for the memories which cracks me up, what memories? He probably didn't even remember that we HAD sex. Life is crazy, I wonder if there is someone out there like this for me? Someone that thinks of me good or bad in certain situations that I am totally oblivious to.

So the moral of the story is...loose your virginity to someone you a) know b)trust and you won't have a lifelong traumatic-like story to tell when it's your turn to share.