I know, I know shut up about the class already...

When I was in sixth grade my best friend turned around and said to me, "You know if you don't get your grades up you are never going to get into college." That uppity bitch was wrong...

So somehow I pulled it out of my ass again. I do the same thing today that I did all through middle school/high school and college. I am the last minute Queen. All semester to write a 20 page term paper? How about I check out some books the weekend before it's due...Romeo and Juliet project worth 30% of Junior English in HS? Scrounging for poster board at 11pm Sunday night. I have always, always been this way. Most of the time it works so it's clearly my m.o. I behave this way with my job too, that's why I like to be super freaking busy. I need momentum to keep me going...let me get stagnant for a minute and the whole operation comes to a crashing halt. I used to make my parents crazy because I have all this intelligence but, none of the motivation. When I was in high school, I took college prep classes, was captain of the drill team, first chair flute in band, in the chorus and the musical every year...oh yeah and I worked weekends too. I mean jesus christ how could I have been anything but, a C student? College was in-fucking-sane. I always took a full load 4-5 class, had a 2 year old (basically by myself DB always had some jacked up job where he worked nights or something) and worked 30 hours a week as a bookkeeper. I remember standing in the shower sobbing in exhaustion. Just praying for the day when I could focus on one thing! When I could come home and just do nothing. So it really didn't surprise many people when I enrolled in Grad school in August of 2006, 2 months before my daughter was born. Why do anything in moderation? Working and taking care of a newborn (and pre-teen) while attending classes online filling up nights and weekends sounds like a kickass time huh? So while some of you may see me as a lazy partier...you are correct. In this moment of my life I am but, I need to remember I wasn't always this way. I've always been a hard worker...may not have had the grades, may have been a teenage pregnancy but, never a statistic. I have carved out a generally successful life out of sheer will power. No one helped me, in fact it was quite the opposite. I'm a goddamn after school special people, recognize.